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DON'T TALK
May. 17th, 2008 | 07:28 pm
mood: 
cheerful
Sam and I are planning on getting an apartment in August or September. I am really looking forward to it. We will both be a lot closer to work and school. I will be twenty miles closer and it will help me save money because gas is outrageous. I am really really excited. This will be a new part of our relationship and I'm glad we are moving on from stuff that happened in the past.
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What the Hell.
Apr. 30th, 2008 | 10:12 pm
Every day I dislike those I used to care about more and more.
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Road trip
Apr. 14th, 2008 | 05:28 pm
mood: 
bouncy
Road trip from Ohio to Vancouver BC :)
A work in progress.
Exciiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiteddddddddddddddddddd
A work in progress.
Exciiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiteddddddddddddddddddd
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Writer's Block: Dream Job
Apr. 14th, 2008 | 05:27 pm
Not having a degree yet.
Just have to take some biology, chemistry, organic chemistry, calculus and who knows what else.
Just have to take some biology, chemistry, organic chemistry, calculus and who knows what else.
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Equal Discrimination
Apr. 10th, 2008 | 04:50 pm
mood: 
aggravated
In my Sociology class we watched this video about "what it means to be white"
When asked "what does it mean to be white" white people said:
"I don't even think about it"
"People are people we're all the same underneath"
"It doesn't really matter to me"
When asked "what does it mean to be white" non-white people said:
"If you're white you're right, if you're black step back"
"you get undeserved priveledges and rights"
"Always being right and never having to say sorry"
So. I'm white. Excuse me for not having an ethnic heritage or religious upbringing to fall back on or complain about.
I don't get shit being white. My mom is a single (low income) parent. All I get is thirty thousand dollars of debt.
I'm not eligible to a "United Negro Fund" Scholarship nor do I get special priveledges annointed to those of religious backgrounds.
If I started an "Atheist" fund for children of Atheists I'm sure some Christian group would get pissed off and call me un-american.
.... Ya can't complain about those Christians they never do ANYTHING wrong. (Sarcasm intended)
If I started a 'United White Fund" It would be racist.
..... I can't complain about BET because apparently everything is WET.
Either way I'd be discriminating.
So. I propose this:
Instead of looking at the population as a whole, and discriminating people, why not discriminate as a whole and "undiscriminate" those you like?
I dislike: Christians, Blacks, Catholics, Whites, Asians, Jews, Indians, Mexicans, Muslims, Italians, the handicapped, Irish, etc etc etc......
But I do like:
My boyfriend: He's of Mexican decent and he's a Christian (Southern Baptist at that)
My best friend. She's white and has no religous affiliation
Friend: She's an African Jew
My boss: She's a black Muslim
Other friend: He's a black Christian
Other friend: She's Japanese; Black; White; Mexican and she's a Christian
It makes sense to me.............
But. I guess this is just me being an ignorant whitey.
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D is for Dangerous
Apr. 4th, 2008 | 02:39 pm
mood: 
blah
I miss my dad.
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Writer's Block: The Perfect Crime
Apr. 4th, 2008 | 02:36 pm
music: Arctic Monkeys
Successfully not doing a research paper (because I am lazy) and getting an extension (jnto the next quarter) because I said I was having trouble and needed help.
And of course driving drunk.
And of course driving drunk.
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Writer's Block: No Laughing Matter
Mar. 29th, 2008 | 07:28 pm
lol nothing. I just saw a comedian last night who joked about putting out cigarettes on babies because they won't remember it. I cracked up!!! People are just too sensitive. Get over it.
I was so happy, the guy dogged on religion, media, government, parnets who think their children are going to get kidknapped or raped because of the internet.... He basically talked about how people live in fear of all this nonsense. Nonsense that has been built up and is just as likely to happen as you winning the lottery.
I was so happy, the guy dogged on religion, media, government, parnets who think their children are going to get kidknapped or raped because of the internet.... He basically talked about how people live in fear of all this nonsense. Nonsense that has been built up and is just as likely to happen as you winning the lottery.
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Freaking Out!
Mar. 28th, 2008 | 12:01 am
I've come to the conclusion that I am indecisive. I am pretty sure I know why. I feel like everyone is lying to me or trying to sway my opinion. I feel like it's almost impossible to make an informed decision about anything. It's so frustrating to have to dig through the bullshit people say to find out what the truth is.
Voting for example. Simply choosing a presidential candidate is a burden. One side totally builds up a candidate while another side is tearing them apart. Someone is always getting something in return (either money or constituents) for what they say.
Even the things the media says makes me wonder. How many kids really did find razor blades in their apples; or drugs in their candy on Halloween? (The answer is two) Are illegal drugs REALLY the biggest concern amongst teens and adolescents? (What about LEGAL drugs that are abused??)
Look at the things the media are most focused on. Right now I can think of two things: gas prices and the upcoming election. I think the most important thing to notice is what is NOT being talked about. The media are paid/told what to report on. Nothing is truly unbiased.
Am I just a skeptic? Or a paranoid psycho??!!? Or is that what they want me to think?!?!?
Voting for example. Simply choosing a presidential candidate is a burden. One side totally builds up a candidate while another side is tearing them apart. Someone is always getting something in return (either money or constituents) for what they say.
Even the things the media says makes me wonder. How many kids really did find razor blades in their apples; or drugs in their candy on Halloween? (The answer is two) Are illegal drugs REALLY the biggest concern amongst teens and adolescents? (What about LEGAL drugs that are abused??)
Look at the things the media are most focused on. Right now I can think of two things: gas prices and the upcoming election. I think the most important thing to notice is what is NOT being talked about. The media are paid/told what to report on. Nothing is truly unbiased.
Am I just a skeptic? Or a paranoid psycho??!!? Or is that what they want me to think?!?!?
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Writer's Block: Neurotic Behavior
Mar. 27th, 2008 | 11:47 pm
When people put the roll of toilet paper on backwards. If it's wrong, I change it around. I also enjoy any kind of repetitive action and; alphabetizing and arranging things by color and/or size.
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Writer's Block: What? Everyone Doesn't Like Me?
Mar. 25th, 2008 | 05:10 pm
music: Arctic Monkeys
My boyfriend tells me I act stuck up and I have this "tone" in my voice. My family tells me I am snobby. But I don't think I am better than anyone else. Actually. I do. Why should I surround myself around people who have no potential, will be unsuccessful and only bring me down?
I don't want to waste my time getting to know people who won't stick around.
I only worry about myself.
I guess I'm stubborn too.
I don't want to waste my time getting to know people who won't stick around.
I only worry about myself.
I guess I'm stubborn too.
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Fake Tales of San Francisco
Mar. 25th, 2008 | 05:02 pm
mood: aggravated
music: Arctic Monkeys
During the summer I was enrolled in an accelerated online course in Addictions. Well, my grandfather passed away and I got behind so I asked the prof if I could have an Incomplete grade till I could make it up. Well. I am just now starting the course again and I seriously can't even sit and watch these video lectures. I've taken about 5 other classes in addictions (and read a bazillion books) and every opinion I've made is the exact opposite of what this woman is saying. It's so frustrating because I don't agree with anything she says, yet I have to follow her line of thinking. ARGH!!!
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Bullet with Butterfly Wings
Mar. 20th, 2008 | 12:46 pm
mood: 
anxious
music: Pandora :)
Things are much happier with Sam and me. I was upset about us for a while since I had stuff on my chest. But, we talked about it and I'm so much more relieved.
He's got a job interview this weekend and a college visit next week. He's serious about school and getting his stuff together and I am so happy for him. It just seems like he hadn't realized his potential and what's out there but I really think he can do whatever he wants.
Things are really looking up for both of us. Except I probably just jinxed us.
*** Winter quarter is almost over***
He's got a job interview this weekend and a college visit next week. He's serious about school and getting his stuff together and I am so happy for him. It just seems like he hadn't realized his potential and what's out there but I really think he can do whatever he wants.
Things are really looking up for both of us. Except I probably just jinxed us.
*** Winter quarter is almost over***
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A Wolf at the Door
Mar. 17th, 2008 | 07:29 pm
mood: excited
music: Radiohead
Okay. What I thought was a Brain and Mind concentration is actually going to be a new department/program at my college. They are actually calling it "Neuroscience." So. I will actually be able to get a Bachelor's degree in neuroscience. Whoa! There are three different directions one can take: 1) Neurobiology, 2) Neuropsychology, 3) Neurophilosophy. I am pretty excited except.... it will not begin until Fall 2008 and I will be changing my major SENIOR year. I told my advisers that I did not feel like I was taking the correct courses - and indeed I was not. *sigh* I was expecting to be there an extra year...... now maybe it will be two..... I am not sure if it will be best to just get my degree in Psychology and take some supplemental courses; or just full out change it. It's awesome, yet very daunting at the same time. I guess I will learn more once the program is fully staffed and they have their shit together.
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Sit Down Stand Up
Mar. 16th, 2008 | 09:14 pm
mood: cheerful
music: Radiohead
I just realized all of my posts have been negative. So here are some positives:
1. Exam week is coming up and I only have exams one day
2. Spring break!! Of course.... I am not going anywhere. I am just excited to work a lot and rake in some dough!
3. Doug Stanhope is coming to the Nati and my boyfriend and I already have tickets. STOKED!!!
1. Exam week is coming up and I only have exams one day
2. Spring break!! Of course.... I am not going anywhere. I am just excited to work a lot and rake in some dough!
3. Doug Stanhope is coming to the Nati and my boyfriend and I already have tickets. STOKED!!!
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A Time to Be So Small
Mar. 16th, 2008 | 08:54 pm
mood: annoyed
music: Interpol
Argh. It's my third year of college and I am just now realizing that I have yet again been on the wrong track.
I started as a Psychology major. Then I realized I did not like that touchey-feeley bullshit that goes along with it. I took some courses in Addiction and LOVED it.
Luckily, I got a new job and my boss informed me that I should probably be interested in Psychiatry since I enjoy more of the biological, neurological and pharmacological aspects of the brain. So.... I have chosen Psychology with a concentration in biology. ie: Biopsychology.
Thursday at the committee meeting for work I spoke with the Director of Undergraduate Research and he is going to hook me up with a researcher to get some experience and hopefully learn something!!!
However, as i was perusing research opportunities I stumbled across another concentration in Psychology. It's the "Brain and Mind" concentration "which will prepare students to be competitive for post graduate education in philosophy, psychology, neuroscience, cognitive science etc....."
I told my college adviser that I wanted to go to Grad School for Neuroscience. I told my Psychology Department adviser that I want to go to Grad School for Neuroscience. WHY DID NO ONE INFORM ME OF THIS OPTION???
I have been so thankful that I got this job on the Graduate campus. The people I have met have been more beneficial and helpful to me in the past two months than the Undergraduate school has been for three fucking years. They need to get their shit together because they are costing me a fifth year of college. In order for me to go to grad school I have to take all these classes which none of my advisers told me about. Without everyone elses help I would have been at a significant disadvantage trying to get in after taking the wrong classes.
I started as a Psychology major. Then I realized I did not like that touchey-feeley bullshit that goes along with it. I took some courses in Addiction and LOVED it.
Luckily, I got a new job and my boss informed me that I should probably be interested in Psychiatry since I enjoy more of the biological, neurological and pharmacological aspects of the brain. So.... I have chosen Psychology with a concentration in biology. ie: Biopsychology.
Thursday at the committee meeting for work I spoke with the Director of Undergraduate Research and he is going to hook me up with a researcher to get some experience and hopefully learn something!!!
However, as i was perusing research opportunities I stumbled across another concentration in Psychology. It's the "Brain and Mind" concentration "which will prepare students to be competitive for post graduate education in philosophy, psychology, neuroscience, cognitive science etc....."
I told my college adviser that I wanted to go to Grad School for Neuroscience. I told my Psychology Department adviser that I want to go to Grad School for Neuroscience. WHY DID NO ONE INFORM ME OF THIS OPTION???
I have been so thankful that I got this job on the Graduate campus. The people I have met have been more beneficial and helpful to me in the past two months than the Undergraduate school has been for three fucking years. They need to get their shit together because they are costing me a fifth year of college. In order for me to go to grad school I have to take all these classes which none of my advisers told me about. Without everyone elses help I would have been at a significant disadvantage trying to get in after taking the wrong classes.
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Writer's Block: In this perfect world
Mar. 16th, 2008 | 08:42 pm
music: Modest Mouse
The perfect world would be one in which each person started at the bottom and overcame any obstacales they encountered and conquered any vices they possess. One cannot truly appreciate happiness, peace or serenity until one has been at rock bottom or struggled. Hopefully each person would grow to his or her full potential. It's so sad that some people just stop trying and end up working at Speedway or McDonald's. Complacency is something no one should EVER be happy with. Why wouldn't someone want to continue improving themselves and help others?
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Jesus for the Jugular
Mar. 9th, 2008 | 03:05 pm
mood: aggravated
FRIDAY
My friends boyfriend was all over me. I'm going to be blamed for it.
I saw my fall quarter psychology lab professor at the gay bar. Totally awkward.
I failed the class because I'm kinda lazy sometimes. He yelled at me.
So I drank some Nonta Bombs and I felt much better.
Little known fact: Lesbians cannot work windshield wipers. It's true.
SATURDAY
The hockey mascot shot a tee shirt at me. I barely dodged that shit.
A retard (seriously he was mentally handicrapped) threw an Ohio shaped coaster at my face.
Married men are scumbags.
The time change pisses me off. I lost an hour of drinking. God damn.
My friends boyfriend was all over me. I'm going to be blamed for it.
I saw my fall quarter psychology lab professor at the gay bar. Totally awkward.
I failed the class because I'm kinda lazy sometimes. He yelled at me.
So I drank some Nonta Bombs and I felt much better.
Little known fact: Lesbians cannot work windshield wipers. It's true.
SATURDAY
The hockey mascot shot a tee shirt at me. I barely dodged that shit.
A retard (seriously he was mentally handicrapped) threw an Ohio shaped coaster at my face.
Married men are scumbags.
The time change pisses me off. I lost an hour of drinking. God damn.
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Writer's Block: That's So Cliché
Mar. 9th, 2008 | 02:48 pm
mood: relieved
People on myspace who use parenthesis after their name with their relationship status in it. Like... Tabitha (Is Taken) or... Cole (Is Single). Seriously. Why?